It might be worthwhile to start learning modelling yourself? Ever since i joined these communities around 3 months ago it made me wanna learn how to make games... so thats what i did, i've spent a gruelling, eye watering cramp inducing amount of time trying to learn how to model and texture... and guess what i suck as much as you would imagine someone would after 3 months... BUT i am making steady progress, and that drives me forward...
If you learn had started learning these things 5 years ago, you'd probably be as good as AircraftKiller by now...
Just a thought